Road of Uncertainty

the long and winding road

When young and human as we are -- In reality, it's tried-and-true that we are bound to experience people in situations of various kinds. Regardless of the circumstances, truth inevitably appear in your doorstep where life's touchstone of trials abducts you. Now, I assume that there's a somebody whom God put in your life which you considered special? well then, try to think of that somebody while you're reading this. He or she could tend to be always present in your mind. Naturally, during times together, sparks of emotions erupt, beautiful moments could be gracefully engendered and there affection propagates like fireworks display after a New Year's countdown which you can't help but stare at the beauty and brilliancy of colors delightfully painted on the night sky. These feelings dance in your senses, it randomly plays inside your head, and there slowly being glued inside your heart. But then I wondered, how could you immortalize the intimacy between the both of you as time marches on? how could you preserve the affection? I guess, you gotta build up each other eagerly and it would be an intense effort... unless, if you're just aiming for short happiness then later swapped with heartache and frustrating moments. I'll try to sum things up, yes, we always thought that we love someone and out of  stupidity we indulge on something we considered "That's okay, no one knows" or "that's really cute" outwardly not knowing the risks and dangerous consequences we could acquire along the way. Unpreparedness we say, like walking in the middle of the jungle unaware of the beasts that lurks just around corner. Just so you know we're driving in this foggy road of uncertainty. We've been hoping if these special somebody will be the one that could get to sit beside us in this excitingly adventurous but deranged topsy-turvy road-trip of life. If he or she really is, and in my case, if she really is? then it would be my sweetest pleasure to cheerfully put the seat-belts on for it will be the best road trip of my life. Consider that you agreed about it but hey, I want you to pause for a while. Consider this, you know, I know, we all know that still, it's GOD who bless the roads to reach our special somebody, and only if we allow God to do the choosing. We can only wish for the best along the road and the best thing we can do is we must keep driving. Keep driving until you get there but with God. Fate will take along the best of what we want or maybe bring the worst of scenarios, and in our bewilderment, it's all part of the plan where rain of circumstances and challenges that suddenly appear are embedded already as we travel along our long and winding road and there's nothing you can do with that. There will be a point along the journey that we could be worn out, stressed out or in deep doubt. As for instance, this occurred to me...

When you couldn't do anything at all and just can't divulge the long time hidden treasures inside your chest for that particular somebody you highly esteemed and out of helplessness, you tried to contemplate on what's gonna happen next between you and that someone, perhaps. Since you can't make the move,  you'd probably won't get the idea on what's gonna happen next. Then you start to wonder and wander yourself.

Let's say, "THE TWO BUBBLY-EYED ADVENTURERS(he and she)". What could really happen to them?" "How will things be for them both?" you might ask. In the driver's perspective, as we gaze in the far end of the road, you'll see it blurry and vague and it's never been clear unless you've been there already. We never know what lies out there ahead -- what lurks or maybe what surprises awaits. Many questions pops out and it only make us jump in an enormous sea of doubt where we gawk with puzzlement searching for vindication. There along the road are sudden situations you never anticipate that suddenly appear and the next thing you know is that you're already stunned, stumbled and your wheels got stuck in the muddy road of challenging circumstances and there we find it hard for us to move. Sorting things out right as what you wanted is way too impossible and it's like digging a hole on a solid ground using a toothpick. It's an odd feeling and you'll never gonna like it because maybe you find it awkward and wearisome. Indeed, for me, I guess, I never justified myself yet to my special someone and things are never been said and done. I can consider myself an introvert and guess what? my mind glides and couldn't find answers even if I'll be standing on the peak of Mt. Everest and see everything clearly from my perspective. This somber situation made me think this way but it made me believe that only TIME can tell. Simply, I needed TIME. We needed TIME... to unravel this mystery... and this hint of love will be unriddled soon probably.


God designed roads for us to drive along. Reaching for that someone we esteemed so high made it foggy and uncertain. To let you know, my special somebody is my road of uncertainty and reaching for her could possibly make a good driver out of me. As I keep on driving, the road is getting more challenging and daunting but I ain't gonna stop because one day I know that the things that I longed will soon actualize although it's always been so hard to visualize. I will just continue giving out my effort until God reveals things. Whatever aftermaths emerge, rest assured, in my road, it's still God's will be done and the end of my road trip is Him, always Him alone. My strength is never my own and there never will I lose the sight of hope.


It will come that one day I could be able to do all things that needs to be done and say everything that needs to be said that every fiber of my being is attached deeply for that special somebody God will provide. I'd work it out as much as possible on how God designed it to be. Thus, I trust Him because He's the One who perfectly provides, and when He provides, it's special. Nothing more and nothing less. He won't give what my meek heart wants but rather gives perfectly just what it needs. I'll stick on my dreams, they never die. Keep my hopes high like how birds freely fly. Thank You! and I'd like to tell her this...

"If it's hard for you to understand what I'm trying to say, then at least try to feel me in this unusual way. A hole in the bright side is where my eye peeks, but please listen very eagerly, this is how my heart speaks."

(^^,) jm